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When I had the dosa this morning, I kind of squirmed looking at the charred portion. I wanted a crispy, golden brown dosa on my plate. I went on to suggest my wife about how she needs to keep the heat at the optimum level even though she has turned out the best of the dosas on my plate before. Just one bad one and I started commenting ignoring all the good ones I had had.

The clothes I wear I have preference, the movies I watch, the books I read, the friends I keep, the places I go, the mobile phone I use and so on. Not only that, the mobile phone my wife uses, the dress she wears, the way she smiles and so on. Every damn thing out there I have a preference. I question if it is not delivered to my taste and I feel bad if it does not happen according to my preference.

You know the only thing you unquestioningly embraced in life ?

It is YOU.

Yes. When this body and mind was given to me and had evolved with me, I never even bothered to know about it. I never even questioned it once. I assumed it to be what I AM.

While I question everything about everyone I forgot to question this person who is questioning everything else.

Why is this spinning things out of control?

How did it reach this point where it simply goes on and on and drags me in?

How do I get into arguments and make mine and others life miserable?

How did it make me think I have to have this much money, a car, a home and on and on?

Did we ever question the nature of this body and mind that grew with us?

Did we have the opportunity to show preference to what we want and discard what we did not want out of it?

It does not happen unless you start to observe the patterns. You find that most of the things what you do tend to repeat on and on. Your craving for money, lust, power.

You find that your mind has cleverly camouflaged it with bells and whistles all the time but at the end of it leads you to a more affirmative image of ‘I’. A more powerful, a more lustful and a more wealthy ‘I’.

Is that good or bad?

As long as you cannot see the separation or question and introspect the images built by your mind there is nothing good for the real YOU. For sure it could be good or bad for what you are now.

Why we think we become increasingly useless

As time progresses, people become more and more useless as opposed to being anything useful. If you differ with this perception saying that people grow wise I agree, but only as an exception.

You may attribute it to ageing or energy levels going down etc. While I may agree partially here, I would say there are several people who are very meticulous about regular physical activity to keep them charged. But they dont do anything that is useful.

By useful, I mean, being creative.


When you were in college and later you work for someone especially the initial years the creativity is at its best. As you cross the 10th year, you start travelling the curve of sheer mundaneness.

How did you lose your charm? This question may fetch different answers with each one of them. For some it could be the marriage. For some it could be the constant quest for money. For others it could be some power or position they were seeking in their work or elsewhere.

You just get sucked by your greed for more and more.

Rather than just being that fellow who was open to learn the first day in office.

Unlearning is a great tool. I feel unlearning is not something similar to the way computers erase their data in memory. It is about attaching the importance to new things or things which can open your vision to another world which never existed within you.

For example, if some one has been mad after making money all his life, to unlearn that habit, he may start playing golf which may open up new experiences for him. While playing golf dont make new friends with the intention of making more money..thats all. If it comes your way, take it. But dont go for what you have been always going for.

Change the gears!

It may sound hard because of the comfort zone you rest on. But you will not discover the other side of you if you dont move out.