Ah another thing I left out of the previous blog

In the same walking incident I described in the previous blog, I saw a person wearing a T shirt with this expression 'I will even kill for Noble peace prize'. It was obviously to display to others that 'I found this funny' and you may too sort of thing. I too felt it funny for a moment. Then I thought what sort of sick fellows are around to wear a T shirt like that. If I wear to choose to wear a T shirt with a statement I wont be selecting this. The oxymoron may be appealing, but I do not like provocative words like 'killing' nor the idea that you would kill to achieve peace. So it is in a way not so funny.

Going further I was thinking over this. People end up killing each other in acts of terrorism or war mainly to find peace. But how sad it is that your peace is decided by the elimination of another person. How sad you came to that conclusion. If some one is attacking another then the person being attacked loses his peace and end up retaliating to get back to his peace. But what if some one attacks another with a larger interest to gain control over land? They invariably destroy the peace of others. In such a case would you mind killing? Peace can be there when there is no killing. But killing has to be there to reach a state of peace.

In the movie Hey Ram by kamal haasan, the protagonist finds his wife raped and murdered in communal violence and ends up killing a few in that rage. A case of retaliation to regain peace which was disturbed because the killer's peace was disturbed and so on. Initially it may start with a wrong and it gets multiplied with every one repeating it. It is a system without balance. The system automatically balances itself by killings. Even if there exist one person who sees something as wrong and even if it is seen as right by all others hatred continues, killing continues.

Its a chain reaction and never stops. Hatred is a chain reaction. Hatred comes out of lack of peace within. We have prejudices built within ourselves over time seeing things, reading thing, hearing things and layers and layers of untold emotions are within us which lets out at a conducive moment. Being able to see through these layers within and be able to un-identify yourself or dissociate the you from these mythical layers is the way to go.

Love helps people remain in peace. But to love one has to be peaceful within himself. 

I saw that same person approaching me as I walked again. This time I noticed the spelling mistake in the 'Nobel' word. I had a urge to point it out to him. By that time he crossed and went behind me. I was thinking 'leave him in peace'. Why create a conflict in him. You never know if he will take it positively or negatively. His jogging is important. Not words. Nor spelling mistakes :-)

The mysterious connections between people when they come close

As usual I was in the park adjacent to a lake which is very much dry and you can see kids playing cricket. There is a walkway around the dry lake. There are trees occasionally along the path.

I went one full round which is little more than a kilometer as I am told. Then I saw some one crossing me. He was a middle aged man wearing white shorts and a T shirt with dull orange color stripes.  After a while of walking, I realized I was just behind him. Our pace were somewhat the same. So I was just behind him. At some point I saw that I was hearing the sound of our walking. The shoe noise. I normally take up a topic and think it over while walking and this noise was interfering. So I tried to speed up a bit and cross him. While I equaled him, I saw he was also increasing his pace to stay ahead of me. Then I increased mine and he did and we were kind of in competition. I was mildly frustrated that both are reacting to each other when I wanted to just walk freely in my pace. So I suddenly ran past him for a distance and then started my normal walk. I felt free. I was back to my pace and my world of thoughts. Then I saw this man crossing me jogging now and continue to jog. I was thinking what sort of people we have around. I was convinced now that he wanted to show he can walk faster or he was reacting to my pace. In any case he disappeared from my eyes soon and I was left with myself.

There is a certain magical force when one person comes in the orbit of another. This is something like the way planets are positioned and follow a orbit and are influenced by other. If you are alone you are fine and left to whatever you are. The moment I add another variable in the system such as a person in the room or space you are in you no longer are the same as what you were when the person was not there. Your thoughts are invariably about the other person as what he thinks about you and your actions are very mindful now. This is mysterious to me. In some way this shows we get connected through some stream of consciousness and are influenced by one another. People tend to avoid this eerie silence by either staring at something else or reading a newspaper or some times strike a conversation. The latter actually eases the friction to some extent. You feel comfortable that there is nothing unusual in the head of the other person about you.

Being withdrawn inwardly and not getting associated with your mind and its tentacles extending into others minds nearby helps to first observe this in you and further choose to focus on what you want devoid of external situations. Do this. Do this. Do this.